still at LOOLOO's house now..
dont feel like going for tuition already.
cause its raining heavily outside!!
guess i'll take a short nap before heading home. =/

ended school at 12plus today. -- `duh.
hmms. my day in school.

my day goes like this.

biology
english
maths
biology
recess
chinese

END OF SCHOOL.

they seperated both biology lessons. =/
maths, had amaths trigo test !
its rather EASY. but i didnt get the 3rd question.
i only found 2 answers! when there's suppose to have 6 answers! =x

chinese was rather boring too!
did the zhuo ye, then watch brotherhood. =.=
its so BLOODY AND DISGUSTING!
the person's hand got BOMBED and and he didnt even feel the pain !
so GROSS !

exams are like 9days away.
sad to say, i haven even start studying !
it shall be a busy week for me.

having service tomorrow,
maybe after that call some of my friends out to study. (:

teckyang, sorry that i couldnt get you a SS textbook.


had a little Quiet Time before i went to bed yesterday.
felt rather "refresh" after that? yupps.
and went off to bed feeling so nice. =)

hahas. alrighty.
i shall do something else now.



i'm so tired of you and your words.

shall i stop for the time being and move on slightly later?

back from school !
im at LOOLOO's house now.
waiting for my cup noodle to be ready -- again`

chiong here after school today,
cause ltr having tutoring. =/
so yupperrs!

so how's my new blog?
hmms.


add colours to my life.


i dont want it to be just black and white.

NEW BLOG SKIN !

NEW LAY OUT !

EVERYTHING's NEW.

except for one.

i said i will be back online only on Saturday!
but still decided to come online today. =x

did the history essay until 12plus yesterday!
wrote one and a half pages! plus another one,
makes up 2 pages! so clever!

xD

today school was about the same!
lalala.
and on 15th October i wna go SAJC open house!
LOL. maybe after service with my besties. =))

today after school went to kfc and had lunch!
then met up with my caregroup people and went to serangoon!
we had a rented flat there.
caregroup was SO FUN !
i love my caregroup people!
we talked, played games, prayed and stuffs la.
kept on laughing NON-STOP. =))

oh yes, WE SANG too!

it goes like,

i love you Jesus,
deep down in my heart,
i love you Jesus,
deep down in my heart,
and we'll go deep deep, down down,
deep down in my heart,
and we'll go deep deep, down down,
deep down in my heart !

i think is sth like that. somemore got dance steps one!
so COOL hor! =x

alrighty, nw waiting for my sister to come home with my dinner.
aka, CUP NOODLES.

muahahahas. and my last toe of my right leg is SWOLLEN !

=(

during caregroup meeting, talked about Quiet Time we spent with God.
yupps.

hahahahahahahahahahas.

im gone! bye! ^o^



all you have for me is hatred.


but i still love you deep deep down.

heyss.

had physics mock test today. its such a failure!
i have to really study hard already.

today after noon, got mediacorp people come film.
film the YOU HUA JIU SHUO show.
rather boring la. =/

decided to go home at about 5plus today,
cause wasnt in the mood la.
then boarded the bus and realised my EZ-LINK card is with mr chan!
cause i was late for school today..
took one stop and alighted,
walked all the way back to school just to retrieve that stupid card.

reached home at about 7.25pm.
felt much btr after taking my shower.

right now, i feel that i have to place what is more important first, my piorities and stuffs. the others can wait i guess, until after the EOY exams. i shall let nature take its course ya? even if you hate me.

hmms. didnt went for tuition today.
i just wna go home and not doing anything.

ltr gna do my history FOR SURE.
or else that teacher is gna nag at me.
forget it.

tmr gna have care grp.
most prob gna study tgt. =)
GREAT.

hmms, i guess i wont be coming back online for a few days ba. maybe until saturday?
yupps.

okiee dokiees, if you wna look for me, call me! BYE!



i will never let hatred exist in me. at least in you.

i want my boyfriend back.

came across this phrase on shooting stars!

girl, be who you are,
don't pretend to be someone you're not,
as if the guy loves you,
he'll do anything for you.


so SWEET yes? hahas.

1st Ladi - Never Be Replaced


Baby i love you and i'll never let you go
but if i have to boy i think that you should know
all the love we make can never be erase
and i promise you that you will never be replaced
baby i love you and i'll never let you go
but if i have to boy i think that you should know
all the love we make can never be erase
and i promise you that you will never be replaced
i love you yes i do
i'll be with you as long as you want me too
until the end of time
from the day i met you
i know we've be together
and now i know i wanna be with you forever
i wanna marry you and i wanna have your kids
thinking never compare to feel enough to kisses
i can say i'm truly happy to the same
you've made me think i'll die and live my life everyday
there's never been no doubt in my mind
that i'll regret ever having you by my side
but if the day come that i'll have to let you go
i think that something i should probably let you know
with everyday that i spent with you
then i will miss you cuz i'm happy that i have you at all
baby i love you and i'll never let you go
but if i have to boy i think that you should know
all the love we make can never be erase
and i promise you that you will never be replaced
baby i love you and i'll never let you go
but if i have to boy i think that you should know
all the love we make can never be erase
and i promise you that you will never be replaced
I feel for you yes i do
i'll be with you as long as you want me to
until the end of time

i destroyed everything with my own hands,
due to my childish and immature thinking.

im such a fool.

just bathe!! im super tired lor!
hahas.

in the afternoon,
met up with weisong, took a bus to northpoint and studied.
i studied history and physics!
^o^ jonas didnt came,
but teckyang came instead. hahas.

after studied, talk alot!
like crapping ard la. primary school stuffs.
then realised how childish and stupid we used to be. LOL.

walked home, cause weisong got no more bus fare.
and actually, my house is quite near lor.
hahas. after that, went out to have dinner.
super duper full lor! xD

boredd.
determined to study tmr!
ask jingda teach me physics.
his physics, wahpiangs!
DAMN QIANG.

okays, im done with my blogging! tatas!
hope lalu and xueting wont be sad after the "break-up".



where do i stand in you?

am i completely deleted.

just dropping a short entry! xD
gna study with weisong at northpoint burger king nw.
so if you miss me or you wna peep at me,
go find me there okays? hahas.
j0kingss!

jonas gna look for us ltr on. hahas.

oh well ! byee! =D!

i had 4hours of tuition STRAIGHT!
and im going for night tuition tmr,
cause i wna study in school.
maybe david is staying back. oh well.

xD

im real full now, just had lunch.
gna do my HISTORY homework ltr.
and im determined to study my history ltr.
so i can score well and i can show it to MRS SIM that she CAN'T TEACH !

lalala.
okays, im rebellious,
i have attitude problem.
but to this kinda teacher,
i dont give a damn !
^o^

okie dookie.
im gna study nw!
but im gna be online.
muahahahhas.

my waist hurts!
like blueblack like that. only that it is red in colour.
my head too!
=(


sometimes, i wish that i can forget about everything.
maybe it will be much better for me.

ahh ! i have a red patch on the back of my waist ! super pain ! =((

just nw junrui, yuzhe and chitsian came under my block and look for me. stupid people. LOL. went to buy tmr's breakfast with them then go home. damn stupid. junrui fell down TWICE. dumb.

weisong just called me and asked if i can go out study LATER. =.=
super late lor!!! hahas. but im nt going. tmr morning gt tuition. xD

im back from service! =D
and something happened la.

I FAINTED DURING SERVICE!

its like TOTALLY scary can!
its worst than what happened last year. =x

and i think when i fainted,
i HIT my head and the back of my waist!
cause super duper pain lor!

arrgghhs..
today, was finding everyone out to study!
but no one was there!!!

called jocelyn, she had tuition.
called lalu, she wna see her cameron.
called xueting (was with lalu), wna see her tomblack.
called krissy, she was having history extra-lessons and tuition.
called cindy, never pick up.
called elaine, mother dont allow.
called david, mother dont allow.
asked dennis in msn, mother also dont allow.
asked john in msn, gna accompany his girl.
called jonas, going out.
actually gna study with weisong and company.
but must wait until 6plus, so nevermind.

i asked like my WHOLE social circle la.
no one was free!
so i decided to call david once more.
AND LUCKILY!
his mom was in a good mood!
we met at junction8* and studied.

before he arrived, saw lester.
he was studying with daowei and sheryl.
while waiting, daowei called me.
went to sit sit awhile and talked to him.

yupperss!
then i came home.
i shared cab with david too. for NO REASON!
cab to amk mrt station. i contributed 2 bucks for the fare! =))

the thing that pisses me.

stupid sickening teacher MRS SIM,
called home.
and she said i didnt passed up homework and stuffs.
i saw a piece of paper near the phone.
and i think that was what she told me mom.
what today, i think it meant about the work i "promised" to pass up today.
and what LAST LESSONS TALK ABOUT MATHS.
oh please, your lessons DOESNT even interests me.

argghs, whatever la. i totally hate her.
if she's gna be my history teacher next year,
im gna talk to ms zaiton.
>=(


hahas. im waiting for my AH MA to come. =))
yay! i loveeeee her.



i traded my stress and anger for the joy of God.


you brought me joy and happiness.

heyheyss`

woke up at 9 plus in the morning.
super early lor. =x
i somemore planned to wake up at 10 like that.
my wake up time is like 8plus 9 lor. =/

going to bathe then go for church.
wna study.
but everyone is not free!
all at chalet and stuffs.

after service.
2 choices,
either study or go home.

BORING~~~~~
(hah)

service until 2.30pm.

okay, so people listen up!

IF YOU WNA GO ORCHARD WALK WALK OR STUDY, PLEASE GIVE ME A CALL!

^o^

thank you for being by my side when it was the most difficult time for me, and thank you for hugging me when i broke down. =) iLOVEyou so much!

just reached home,
today is friday,
and friday means?

BE A HOUSEWIFE DAY!

=x hahas.

alrighty, im super pissed with a sickening teacher in school.
her sickening name is called, MRS SIM.

it all start like this,
she came to our class today and called those who didnt did the history SBQ and SEQ yesterday to come out. well, so i went out and she was like bitching ard la.

and she said that we have to pass up by tomorrow, EXTRA-HISTORY lesson. for the day she DIDNT came. sucks.

but obviously im nt going right. having service.
so being NICE, i went to tell her.

here is our conversation.

me: Mrs. Sim, i cant attend lessons tmr, i having service.
Sim: No, you have to attend lessons.
me: But i cannot right, i having service.
Sim: Then you have to give me a letter written by your parents.
me: okay la!
Sim: Stay back after school and finish the work.
me: i'll do today and i'll ask someone to pass it to you tomorrow.
Sim: Who.
me: dont know.
Sim: WHO.
me: i dont know, how i know who going tomorrow. i just ask someone pass to you la.

*being so pissed, i walked back into the class, btw, Mrs Sim is the teacher i hate most*

Sim: SHERYL! COME BACK.
me: what.
Sim: Oh, So you're CHALLENGING ME right.
*she only knw how to use this sentence*
me: No.
Sim: You are challenging me now.
me: NO. *fold arms*
Sim: You can come punctually, and leave at 11.30, then you can take one straight bus there.
*please la, you telling me that 30 mins can reach orchard? from OUR SCHOOL?*
me: *giving a super not happy face*
Sim: I'm teaching a new chapter tomorrow, so you have to come.
me: I come i also wont listen one what.
*its the TRUTH! cause i hate her lessons*
Sim: OH! so you say you wont listen.
me: I mean i rather study at home what.
Sim: Give me your house number.
me: blah blah blah blah blah.
Sim: How do i address your mother.
me: MRS CHUA.
Sim: Mrs what?
me: C-H-U-A.
*i mean, HELLO! that is my SURNAME. dumb woman*
Sim: Your father number.
me: You can just call my MUM.
Sim: NO. i want your father's number.
me: blah blah blah blah blah.

i just open the class door, and BANG it straight in her face.
i super not happy just now lor.
i was like giving her attitude the whole conversation.
i HATE her!
she is like the worst teacher i ever have lor.

her lessons doesnt interest me, i rather stay at home and study lor. i mean, HISTORY, all you can do is memorise what. then my sister have SO many notes! its like better than going for that stupid lessons of hers and me just sitting there TALKING.

whatever la. i hate her and i will NOT go for her lessons tmr.

okays, im gna vacuume the floor! BYESS!

oh ya, all my friends today all went to sentosa. but i didnt want to. hahas.



is there such things as perpetual love?


completion of you and me.

im so tiredddddd ~~~~~~~

just reached home not long ago. about 15mins ago!
bathe and here i am blogging =x
hahas.

studied in school today, LOL.
studied physics,
actually my intention of staying back in school is not to study. lalalas. a secret shall be kept a secret. =D

was writing those physics notes in my ten years series,
then suddenly SUPER DUPER HUNGRY!
youxu was the only one there to accompany me for lunch,
then went to market and had lunch. =D
ate SUPER ALOT!
guess what i ate.
i ate one chicken rice plus the fish soup PLUS one ice milo.
muahahahahas.

came back to school,
then after that went to games room AGAIN.
played a little then went off at 5plus.
guess where i went !

hmmss.

i became a guai guai and went for night tuition!
now my tuition until 9pm. hahas.

super tired lor!
heng my parents came and fetch me. =DD
or else i now also haven reach home.

i ltr gna BURN THE MIDNIGHT OIL!
need to study biology,
EXCRETION and HOMEOSTASIS.
=(

alrighty! i go eat my dinner already!
tataaasss~


nothing is forever.

yesterday yesterday!

band members from dont know what college from australia came to our school ! 3 were posted into my class! namely NICK, ROBET, and JOHN ! NICK is so darn CUTE. ROBET is like rather funny. JOHN, i dont know. =x hahas.

stayed back after school for the performance! its totally ROCKS! so fun! =D
im lazy to talk about it la.
thomasblack and cameron who belongs to XUETING and LALU respectively, ARE SO DARN CUTE! hahahahas. oh well. should stop torhuey-ing. =)


today, stayed back in school to study. =think im gna stay back in school for the next few days or weeks la.
cant study at home. =xmost prob 6plus go home. lalala.anyone free and wants to study in school, CALL ME KKAYS! xD


after school went to games room and played pool for awhile,
then sat at the foyer there and study with dennis,
yeohyuan and shuwei there playing piano. =.=
studied physics. hahas.

dennis wasnt even studying.
he was drew sth.
ask me go show ****.
LOL.
lame la. but who cares.

here are the picturess!!!

*it reads: Is this Dream? Under the moonlight,shining so bright on us,lets hope for miracle,to fall on us once again,will we?*

and


*it reads:You hold the key to my heart,for now and forever.from a darkness world i came from,is you that took me out of this world of mine,you show me light and colour,you brought me joy.*

hahahas! i think v cute leh. =x


next time show it to my boyfriend. LOL.
=x



my love for you is like a candle,
if you give it one moment,
it will last forever.


i know its too late to turn back now.

just finish revising my biology and emaths!
^o^

biology*

chapter one -- Cells
chapter two -- Diffusion and Osmosis + Suface Area:Volume
chapter three -- Enzymes


emaths*

chapter one -- Quadratic Equation


hahas. rocks.
tmr maybe studying in school or sth la.
cause i think study outside more effective.
muahahahas.

alrighty! im off to see my X files #2.


im feeling glad. =)

reached home at 6 plus today!
one weird thing!
i STUDIED alone at northpoint today!
muahahahhas.
studied biology! ^o^

came home,
and started preparing dinner!
cooked soup, cut this and that la la la ~

im gna study my biology and emaths once i've blogged finish,
so if you're looking for me,
call my phone okays! =))

alrighty,
im gna talk about this friend that im rather PROUD of.
and he is none other than .....................




MR DAVID CHAN ! XDDD



hmms. wondering why i say im proud of him ya?
cause i think he have potential to be a photographer!
totally love it.
=D

my favourite piece is this,



its called "blue rose". haha. it was on the papers "IN" too. =)


here are some other photos which i pretty enjoy looking at.



*Cell Lights*




*Tinted Fluff*




*View From Below*




*Orchard Lights*




*Moving On*




*Stairs*




*Evening Sunset*

cannot believe David took these photos right.
but oh well,
its the truth.
and its COPYRIGHT.
so dont you dare steal it! >=(

hahas. alrighty!
im OFF!

pssss* i slept during chinese class. for TWO whole periods, =x

yesterday was so FUN !

went to meet cindy at northpoint and had lunch,
after that took mrt all the way to somerset to meet up with teckyang, weisong and rachel !
rachel is my care group leader! =) so rocks!

we talked super alot! and they are like so fun people! xD
got to knw some people and they are like so fun-loving!

guess where is the place!
i didnt expect there to have a worshipping hall!
its at CUPPAGE! =))
although the place is quite small,
but it is a nice place la. =))

determined to STUDY STUDY AND STUDY!

after service, went to this foodcourt and talked to my care group people!
hahas. maybe having lunch with them tmr! =))

hmm`s,
went to heeren with cindy after that.
and flesh imp i back lehs! okay, nevermind, im WOLS.
oh ya!
now got girls' billabong wallet already! >=(
last time dont have, guess i'll have to save up nw!
77street! yay!

now is the F4 show! =x hahas.
the "mei zhou pian"
=.-"

about yesterday!
haven say finish.
cindy said she was tired and went home first,
went to meet up with the rest after that,
i SAT at somerset mrt for one hr plus just to WAIT!
but i didnt waste my time!
read a little on the book of JOHN.

went to study until 10plus,
at dno what foodcourt..
took the 11plus mrt back to yishun,
and WALKED back home lor!
talked alot! super alot!
damn funny.
reached home at about 11.57pm.
my parents ALL sleep! no one waited for me! >=(

today`!

woke up in the morning,
had breakfast with my whole family,
and TUITION! lalalas;



ltr maybe going somewhere nearby to study, =)
yupps. alrighty!
im OFF! =p


quote: be an authentic person

MORNING ! =)

its the 17TH ! =.=

alrighty, currently CALLING my dearest tiantian to wake up.
but no one is picking up my call! =(

hmmss, eating at northpoint.
what shld i eat at the foodcourt?
cindy confirm wna eat tomyam mini steamboat !

thinking`s

i think i eat the salmon furai! =))
plus many many sauce! =D

bored bored bored~
tiantian!! faster wake up !


quote: if you do not hope, you will not find what is beyond your hopes

AH! super SLEEPY!

just returned home from the mooncake festival thing.
while walking to see,
yupps, saw you. but its like a stranger now.

forget it.

went to the mooncake celebration!
so many people there.
watched them performed, and i even went to take part in the what cut mooncake thing.
got myself a "musical box", but i gave it to my sister. =))

after that the ex-2/4 people had a talk.
but it doesnt concerns me.
everything are rather SOLVED i guess.

david, cheer up! what are friends for?

some conflicts ltr,
between me, cindy and christine.
but GLAD that everything turned out FINE. =))
guess i actually CHANGED during this period of time, but its up to all of you to see if that is the truth!

the school was to close down,
me, lalu, cindy, christine, liezhen, dennise, yuzhe, andrew, sheldon, peixin and many many many many many more people went to bishan park to play with sparkles. LOL.
super lame.
me, lalu and dennise went to play with the candles,
lit them up, made a wish, blow.
yuppers!

cab back home, and sun bian long bang dennise, krissy and yuzhe. =)

yuzhe! cheer up okay! everything will be okay! dont be too harsh on your words too, its not too good okay?

yes yes!
the whole world is weird today! all today like very not happy,
im living in the world where the atmosphere was TENSE today. =x

brought back my biology textbook!
im determined to master biology during this weekend! yay!

gna go for service tmr!
see how it goes.
hahas. WISH ME ALL THE BEST!
cause im suppose to EXPECT sth like not that "normal" ?
hahas. alrighty!
i shall bathe AGAIN! lalala. =))

quote: a world w/o love, is a world w/o life.

quoted from one's blog:


16th of dec...its suppose to be a special day
for me...but now...its juz like any other
day....


yupps. that is what im feeling now.
forget it.


its 3pm in the afternoon! and im back at home! =)
had lunch at kfc with lalu at northpoint.
bought lunch for my sister today.

friday, my "be a housewife" day. =x
gna vacumme the floor ltr.
cause can't help my mum mop the floor today.
going back to school in the evening!
gt some mooncake festival thing! =))

go there and see see la.
helped out for 2years already.
but this year, dont think i wna help. =x

alrighty! im gna rest for a little while! =D ! tata!

added*
prepared ! im all ready to go to school now!
just remembered sth,
im so HAPPY for you, krissy!
both of you got back tgt on the 13th.
*again*
so well,
PLEASE CHERISH.
or you will have to be like ME! >.<

i need a miracle. 16sept.
maybe to you, its just a day which states the last day of your prelims, dont think you remebered what day isit. it used to be a special day, now, its like any other day.

*edited entry*

HEYHEYS!

im super BLOATED! xD
just had my dinner. lalala.

currently home alone with my sister.
BORING~

i was sort of SLEEPING thru out the whole day.
was super duper sleepy! and i dno why!!!
i thought i slept at 10plus yesterday night.
but it seemed as if i slept for only 3hrs! =x

after school,
all my dear friends went for MATHS CONSULTATION!
except for xueting.
she had lunch with xueting after school at the market.
after that, came back to school and waited for her papa.

her papa came and fetch us.
sent me to tuition!!!
thankks! =))

did amaths functions today during tution!
tmr having amaths test!
and im determined to SCORE for this test! xDDD
going for tuition on Sunday!

lalala. im gna bathe and study! ^o^

*added*

was putting the report slip into my report book today.
and omg, i realised that i improved ALOT !
my L1R5 of CA1 this year was 28.
my L1R5 for SA1 this year was 29.
and and and...
my L1R5 for CA2 was 17 !

SO ROCKS right!!!!
i improved in EVERY SINGLE subject !
except for Physics.
which stayed at D7. but my marks drop la. =x
from 49+ drop to 46+.
oh well !! i shall STUDY. >,< quote: when there is life, there is hope.

24 days to E-O-Y !

i feel as if i LOST a friend.
a really close and dear friend.
but just hope that everything will be back to normal in a matter of time. =)
was thinking this evening on my way back,
why can people just fan1 lian3 bu2 ren4 ren3.
i really dont know why. but hope it will be okay ba.
cause you dont seemed to be someone like this to me. responsibilities.

talked to my mother yesterday!
I LOVE MY MOTHER !
she is so there for me ! =))

and my friends too.
for once,
after all that was happening around me,
i want to thank those who were really there for me.

my family,
my friends.
thank you.

yesterday, was the BEST night for the whole 3week plus!
i actually SMILE to sleep =x

haha. and today in school,
everything seemed so nice already!
i listened in class !

after school,
STUDIED in school leh! i STUDIED! =D!
finally!
because of stupid cindy,
i didnt went for tuition today,
going tmr ! xD

at 5pm, stupid old auntie wna lock the door.
keep on nag and nag and nag NON-STOP.
super irritating!
so made our way down,
and youxu, omg!
can jump SUPER high! =x

=))

now, i'll just concentrate on my studies.

a dear friend of mine told me this,
"dont drown in the valley of self-despair"

okay la, i knw many of my friends said that to me.
BUT this time really got into my mind!
thankks!

okok. i shall end off here la.
i just wna say a thanks to
lalucindyjocelynxuetingkrissyyeohyuan
juneguandaoweitall tallteckyang!

*sorry that i was so IRRITATING during that period of time!*

xDDD hahahahas!
i'm finally stop everything.
but this doesnt mean that i have STOP loving you ya.
but, let nature take its course la. =D !


I LOVE MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS !

Mandy Moore - Cry

I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
It lasted forever
And ended too soon
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed

In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

The moment that I saw you cry

It was late in September
And I've seen you before (and you were)
You were always the cold one
But i was never that sure
You were all by yourself
Staring at a dark gray sky
I was changed

In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

I wanted to hold you
i wanted to make it go away
I wanted to know you
I wanted to make your everything, all right....

I'll always remember...
It was late afternoon...
In places no one would find...

In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

im so disappointed in myself.
once again,
i broke down.

i want all of these to stop.
i've been telling myself,
no more.

but today.
it was still the same.
maybe i didnt try hard enough.

today is the second day of school.
i dont know how long will this continue.

im such a failure.

just revised my maths.
and i feel USELESS !

i dont even understand !
i thought i understand everything !
and now,
i realised that im actually NOTHING.
pure NOTHING.

maths,
the only subject that i can score.
but now,
im speechless.
im such a failure.
a failure in EVERYTHING.

so im rather USELESS hor ?
or shall i say,
im STUPID ?

now this is really STRESS huh?

WHY !
i thought i will NEVER encounter such thing called STRESS.
but now, i am.

the only person who can bring me up,is now gone..

for the first time this year,
i felt like im a goner!

i actually feel that i suck during maths today.
why is this actually happening?

IS THIS WHAT THEY CALLED STRESS?

i dno. im not sure with my emotions now.
all going weirder and weirder.

im at lalu's house now.
she is sleeping. *as usual*
but im sleeping soon.

first day of school,
wasnt really in the mood.
was rather affected by some stuffs which i dont wna think abt anymore.
slept the whole day..
just realised that im only left with 28days before my end-of-year.

i used to believe in this sentence,
when there's a will, there's a way.

but now, i no longer believe in that.
cause even if the will is there,
the way is NOT there.
so whats the use?

blah blah blah.



im waiting for that day to come.
goodluck.

A new day
A new life
A new me

im starting all over again.

my motivation.
to be a new me. =)

currently in my cousin's house. xD
having some HI-TEA kinda stuffs.

one thing, i knw you have CHANGE.
and sth made you CHANGE.
and i dont know what isit.
but it doesnt bother me now.

what bothers me now is that,
you claime that we CAN be friends.
but i dont even feel as if we are friends okay.
it is like,
to you.
YOU HATE ME.
and it seemed as if to you,
SHERYL SUCKS.

is that freaking true?
cause this is BOTHERING me.

i've gt nothing to say now.
but all i want to end off is that,
you have to allow people to change their point of view you understand.
cause you seem to me as if you have no room to accept people.

i dont know. but i just feel this way.
you HATE me.
so if you dont,
TELL ME. and stop treating me this way.
thank you.

im thinking of nothing now.
and you dont have to doubt me.
cause i know what im doing okay.
you are so different frm before. totally.

i've learnt my lesson.
i know, it all over.
i dreaded this to happen.
but i know i its the truth.
its over for me.

i hope that everything would be like what juneguan have said.
3 months later,
i will feel no more pain.
everything will just disappear.
i will miss you no more.

i really hope that this will happen.
as im too tired to think of it anymore.
only when you're gone,
i then realise how important you are to me.

but..
everything is already too late.
no point of me holding on.
cause the result will always be the same..

no more,
its all over.

i shall know how to let go.
you're gone.

i want to be strong.
i want to be that girl you said,
strong.

so i shall,
let go.
although i dont want to.
but i know i have to.

changing.
the whole world is changing.
even me.
i want to show it to you.
but i guess there is no more chance for me to prove.


i want to say,
i love you.
this last time.

AHHHHSSSS~~~~~~~~

why are singaporeans getting crazier and crazier!?
why like to FEN SHI!

today, was feeling so BORED as usual.
then xueting ask me go watch movie.
went to lido watch.

on the way there,
we saw policeman la! at orchard there.
then still GOT nobody there lor!
and we saw this red plastic bag.
but cannot see whats inside.
then i was like telling xueting that scarlie is FEN SHI.
omg.
then after movie,

SO MANY FUCKING PEOPLE THERE
and then realised is really FEN SHI.
DAMN SCARY CAN!

at orchard mrt saw john!
he was there to buy a present.
both xueting and i were SUPPOSE to help him find present.
in the end..
NEVER HELP AT ALL. =x
sorryy!!!

hahas. took neoprint with xueting somemore.
=p
oh yes! back to the stupid movie.

XUETING HOR!
say watch "THE CAVE"
and i dno what fucking show isit la.
then xueting say is anyone who go into the cave will not come out.

IN THE END IS NOT LIKE THAT LA!
bluff me!
and it was like a RATHER boring movie!
wasted 8 fucking dollars!
*but then got make me jump la*
was sort of shocked in the movie. LOL. duilian.

alright la. nth to say~~
i shall show some pictures! lalala.

taken when cindy was at my house the other day! xD






now are those taken today! with xueting the cutie.











HAHAHAHAS! i love sticking out my TONGUE nw! xD
damn ACT CUTE! but i love it. =)

one more thing,
i know that YOU DONT LIKE ME ANYMORE LA!
wlao,
people cannot be happy that you gna accompany me on my birthday.
whats wrong with being HAPPY?
what no hope,
i also NEVER carry any hope right.
so stop saying that i got lor!
damn sick.

even if i like you,
also i like what.
but DONT WORRY. i wont pressure you.
btw, pressure is when one gives one pressure.
no one can give someone pressure lor.
its your mind. you control it.



DAMN IT! whatever.
BYE!

xueting wants me to say that she's a CUTIE.
*puke*

just cab back from lalu's house. (:

earned 35bucks today.
used to know who to share my money with.
but now leh?
nevermind.

i hate this attitude of your.
i hate you when you treat me coldly.
what can this do?
make you forget me?
or make ME forget YOU?
which one?

i hate it i hate it and it hate it!
so totally.
when.
when will you stop doing this to me.

fuck it.
i totally hate this guy now.
i want the old guy back.

STUPID IDIOT!
give him BACK TO ME!



argghs.
having serious mood-swing lately.
but oh well.



=D a secret to share.+++++i've actually found myself a new boyfriend la..but.. but..krissy will hate me if i were to love him..+++++he's good kay!he treats me so good..becos HE SINGS LOVE SONG TO ME EVERYDAY!

so sweet yes?

but sorry guys,i cant reveal him yet..i will tell you all when the time is right.

BYE!im trying to let go, little by little each day

i hate my sister!
she sucks man.
i thought she's going for tuition,
so i will have the WHOLE HOUSE TO MYSELF.

she sucks la.
everytime bring that guy back home.
makes me feel so like SUCKS?

i thought i can have the whole fucking house to myself.
so if i want to scream, i can scream,
if i want to cry, i can cry,
if i fucking want to blast the music,
i can too!

but she's fucking COMING HOME WITH THAT GUY!

damn it. damn it. damn it!

i totally hate my sister!







i just want YOU! i want to talk to you!

M O R N I N G !

decided to blog la. =) rather bored.
my sister, is a FUCKED UP BITCH.
got tuition big ar!
no need do housework. kuku.
argghs. so pissed with that stupid sucker.

finally!
i've got myself occupied..
i've got work. =)

but saying about work..
and thinking about those days,
then i neglected you for my typing..
really sorry.

now i know,
why will people cherish others only after they lose them..
and im one of them.

i dont know how to cherish them when they are with me.
but nw,
when they are g o n e ,
i am a l o n e .

i will then regret..
but its too late already.

♥ sher

10:59 AM

♥ Wednesday, September 07, 2005

hi !
i guess i wont be feeling so bad if i choose to let go.
but S O R R Y! i wont!
cause i want to prove to you that i've change!
if you think that im stubborn, then let it be.
IM STUBBORN! =)


today, woke up in the morning, wasnt really feel right.
cause i know that i can NO LONGER message you.
but oh well,
i woke up FUCKING EARLY!
stupid brain. dont wna let me sleep any longer~!
i having PANDA EYES! how!!!
SUCKER.

so i decided to go wake every tiny friend i have.
and OH DAMN IT.
no one pick up my call la!
called lalu, never pick up.
called cindy, never pick up.
call xueting, never pick up.
called ziwei, HANG MY CALL!

but after awhile, ziwei sms-ed me saying that she was in school.
so nevermind la!

after that, lalu sms-ed me asking me to called her,
she stayed over at feifei's house.
yupps.

and then xueting came sms-ing me.
saying that she is happily with HER DERRICK.
hahas. nevermind too.

AND FINALLY!
cindy called me!
that pig, still sleeping!

but decided to wake up la.
sms-ed me, actually asked me pei her go school pass kargek sth.
in the end dno what zuo ye never do or sth.

meet cindy at northpoint and had lunch at food court!
ahhs! so many memories.
but nevermind!
bu yao xiang!
determination!

after that cindy come my house and watch what rain show.
and its FUCKING nice!
the girl is damn xing fu can!
and the guy and girl soooo CUTE!

but oh well! show only. xP

really laugh damn alot during dinner.
my sister's friend came and had dinner with us.
at a table,
my mum, my sister, me, my sister's friend and cindy!!

we keep on talking!
and keep on laughing!
haha.
cindy say she cannot believe my mum is this kind of person. =))
will say all those funny funny things.

but! hahas. SHE IS MY MUM!
xD

when laughing, suddenly thought of sth.
sth that you have told me before.
"didnt expect my mum is this kind of person"

but SHH!
i shall not spoil my mood with all the sad stuffs!

CINDY MADE MY DAY!!!
thank you!! =)

realised that actually,
a day could be better if you are with your friends.

that is why i felt so terrible during the starting of the holidays.
because, i am alone and i feel so ALONE?
yupps. alone it is.
and nw, with friends, i feel much better.
at least got people say stupid and lame stuffs to you.
at least got someone to talk to. =)

i miss school!
cause i wont think so much in school!

so YAY!
i dont want to think.
im sick and tired of thinking!
its all UP TO YOU now!
i've did all i could. so lalalala!

BYE!

♥ sher

8:58 PM

i know that i can't always get what i want.
i can only pray and wish for that to happen.

N U M B

♥ sher

12:47 PM

♥ Tuesday, September 06, 2005

im using my blog again.
cause i have no one to talk to already.
pathetic??
sure yes?

i've did sth which i've regretted.
and i want to salvage it..
but he is not gna give me a chance anymore.
i know. i brought it upon myself.
i know you can go on.
but i cant.
you are the only one i love.

you were the only one i love,
you are the only one i love,
and you will be the only one i love..

i dont want to give up..
but you are already asking me to give up..
totally.
friends? i cant.
i really cant.


im breaking down.
i dont know what to do anymore.
i really dont know.
tell me please.
i will not forget you.
you know! so stop asking me to get on with life!


all i can do is pray and wait.
w/o any hope.

♥ sher

9:04 PM

SHERYL CHUA :)
21nov90
MI
hopechurch
x_sheryl16@hotmail.com
i love my boyfriend:)